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tit for tat avarice of an already X-rated
schedule
personal story told at dinner among
strangers.
Memory comes also
came along with
youthful impertinence
as of a boy sitting on a grave singing his one two threes
shot through with doubt.
Science came along only to aid method’s imperative
those cruel and those careful
scribbles, tears
hours
hunky-dory tryst later a refrain too easily stated
habitats of real time as opposed to
routine
the boy turns to tell his secret—
Hamlet’s affliction
sweet or imagined now
as sweet.
FRAGMENT (AUGUST)
Look to turn more quickly toward it was fetched a remembrance
and the pervasive hinge
a salutation thunder, or betrayal, the lesser gods
as uneasy as the greater, their saga inconclusive, their minds
unmade up.
The greens hung
lofty, low—
It was not a city to be known by heart.
It was not a small town.
The sea was elsewhere, crashing up against dunes.
It was merely an afternoon
contaminated on either side—
HARMONY
Truculent thing
why missing from these premises?
Stuck in abstraction, in the coiled hand?
Why feeble as you jog along the streets?
Why almost touching?
Are you Socrates, to be written
into the season of robins and suicide?
Is your pose characteristic?
Did you inherit the magenta ring
or the trees’ wild seizure,
the rival architect’s house
hardly built but shining?
Toddler call, at variance with icons,
are you indifferent to sorrow?
Relic of mismanaged risk
newly made, are you,
have you already been forgiven?
COUNTRY LIFE
And lived differently, in a crude cul-de-sac,
with the mangy fox and his id
a clown. Another old horse, this one
made from plastic and wire, trudged out
to find a mare, not aware that war was immanent
and he would be asked about his expenditures
in the star-cast anthem of restitution. The kids were
out of school and on their motors, tearing through the brush,
hell-bent on speed, ignoring the gold birds and their song.
They would never ask who the girl is in the poem, the one in which
Stevens intones a greater mystery, they would not want to know
about mystery. They would want to ride until they won.
And the old clown would want to swoon.
Desire comes and goes and comes,
as if wings on a stem in late summer. The wind came
pretending to be spirit, its largesse vaulting day
and leaving twigs scattered on the grass. That was a good sign,
in a time without signs. It was hard to say, given that no one
read signs any more, except Children At Play and
Stop The Plant. The train was famously remote, and beautiful in its
roar along the river’s edge, hooting and dragging its hoot through air.
And still the issues arose urgently, unlike the night, ever calm.
OPPEN’S WAY
A small table is not a vacancy.
I promise to avoid quotation.
Look what you have started.
Is there another word for Patrick?
But she is singing again!
How much was the farm in Vermont?
To the right is a landscape in Iceland.
My grandfather’s ketch was called Hawkbells.
The forsythia screams on the hill.
I am trying to drink more water.
I see the bell but only by looking up.
Now everything is wet.
If I change my ways will the way change?
He sailed with his wife, Mary.
Memory is a form of forgetting.
I am talking a lot in my sleep.
Clarity in the sense of silence.
Now I have done it again.
to Patrick Farrell
SIGN
Beware of accidents, they will bring grief to paintings.
Beware of the shrub, it will grow into bronze.
Beware of the young, they will leave your food.
Beware of those who take notes, they will cancel your silence.
Beware of red lace, it will turn into film.
Beware of the father, he will teach you to build.
Beware of the brother, he will answer in jargon.
Beware of the mother, she will ruin the meadow.
Beware of the sister, she will dig up your shoes.
Beware of the lover, he will abstract your love.
AFTER MAHLER
A thousand minutes came out of the tottering state.
The bed of thyme moved within its bearings like a dream.
He answered, tomorrow.
Someone else was screaming on the radio; people laughed.
The cat has been dead for some time now.
The wedding party’s bright joy looked strange from the streaking jet.
Meanwhile persons are moving around outside. They have decided to
foreclose on
options pertaining to the new world. Instead, to allow themselves to
live in a world
neither new nor old, but which abides as in a balloon floating
untethered above trophies and noise so that
wren-shrunk
Pentecostal shade
harp rubbed under Mahler’s tent (his abundant farewell
to Alma’s rage)
after all the part that was said and the part that was done
the conductor in his care so one was forced to go
back
to how it might have begun after all
the century that leaks its tunes into the summer air
refuses to call
to call is to ask break a silence but the
music
after all it is music song-spiraled
and the landscape detained across a field into a night in which we
learn only the pornography of sight
its ocular target
see see see
from above the tents and the persons milling about
in their robes
they are the disciples! silence them!
And if they are merely birds flocks rising in circles
like smoke without song see see
we cannot hear the tremulous strings nor the soprano glittering
in the heat of the tent
the conductor mouthing her words not that.
Sun, making its way east and east and west of the river
where the ivy is not poison and the trees not weeds. And this or that spins into
the final cycle, its systemic will. Do not butter the toast, do not come
like a ghost without shame, a promise adumbrated
against the cry of any nocturnal creature.
All against one, and the philosophical questions
on a far continent like so many markets.
Not that either.
Conditions above the smashed agora with the cowboy riding sunset on his
mechanical cart, his small mouth and child’s
incontinent whine. Casinos in full play, paying for
assault, moving to the rush of coin. And still we did not speak, did
not know to whom to speak, muttered at lunch, gave each other
proofs of care, one to
one, bu
t did not come to the table to hear our fathers, they were dead, our
mothers, they were busy, our neighbors, they were elsewhere, our lovers, they
were not listening. Listen. This is a lullaby. Listen.
to Leon Botstein
OPERA
Logic, for example, skewed from mooring.
Boats adrift but loaded.
Anchors away! This way, says the captain,
this way, says the mate.
That said, the small grows
into film and an audience forms to clap.
For the good guy.
For the wounded under a halo of sand.
Bands play. Flags. Aromas.
The blackened fields ready for grafting,
seeds incapacitated
in the nuance of tragedy
stripped to its bone—
disinclined to repeat
unworthy of sequence.
A monotone of commitment.
Thus illogic disguised as logic.
Thus Faust through the ages.
And the heart’s munitions
cooked down to devotion, seared in a pot.
Pot of melted weaponry.
The margin called to from afar.
Speech acts.
Massive audience turning away in tears.
The nonmoon followed by the nonsun.
Two
IMPOSSIBLE BLUE
STONES(THE COAST OF TURKEY; ROBERT SMITHSON)
1.
Forget that version, gist’s
truncated eruption, stone
placating heat, avenue luminous but forbidden
up the steep assault. She of glittering rings, of the swollen
intricacy of faith, sinks into dust, frees an icon from its
distillation—unction of tears, waxy scent
of a remnant nave. Out there, things ride their riddles
like toys in space, an agenda gap on the morphic tide.
Here, the soul pivots on scripted discs
curving away from the story
we thought we would always tell.
Bird, halo, gust,
Poseidon grass and impeccable weave
(silk on silk) young sailor with one leg raised,
the bride stalked, red beads
hurting her throat.
Now a veil
is thrown clear across the disturbance
across the domestic stage
to the circle’s wet edge.
I can see through this, and this, I can see
the dispersal as if it were tomorrow, hinge of arrival opening—
how it goes, adage after adage, through the sanctuary,
the nave’s arcade,
dipped pigment and last trace
trespassing over a bridge onto a continent, the increments
bewildered by detail—
searching the site,
mouth, thumb, foot,
stone angled across the processional
where they climb to stare, the him and the her,
black goats bleating from the cloister
passing something on.
Single plaintive note, little redundancy.
2.
The arcade leads
from sacred to secular, carrying the relic
overhead, architect
hammering away at bedrock, swallows
igniting air’s scripture,
sediment extended outward and down—
nudity of the example, its accumulated rite.
In this space, glyphs
transcribe scale’s precision.
This or that step
falters at the bazaar,
postcards fall through the mosque’s vaulted diaspora,
releasing their images from history’s
crude hideout,
mistakes and dead-ends
in peripheral vision—men hugging each other
while another, bloody scrap on the road, is perpetually beaten.
There was the illusion of purpose, the illusion of content,
as if we were responses annulled by our norms.
Hired old dame weaving,
raw wool pulled through
a tourist economy,
its itinerant, spectral, real.
A false god has a greater reality than the true,
and so extensions of the Cartesian mind are carried to the most
attenuated points of no return
babbles the anthropologist
as a young man wraps a car in cloth
to mourn the contemporary, his desire
kept under the revolution’s chronic restatement, tour guide
speaking in third person, bus of strangers
importuned with tea.
The impure surface,
iridescent purple, green and silver surfaces,
these surfaces disclose a cold scintillation,
sight is abolished by a hermetic kingdom of surfaces.
The surfaces of the reliefs are definitely surfaces,
the surfaces in Scorpio Rising,
or California surfaces, the
brilliant chromatic surface—Thanatos in aqua,
surfaces that look mineral hard. A variety of surfaces
from Saturnian orchid-plus to wrinkle-textured blues and greens,
the inside surfaces of the steel sites,
every surface in full view.
3.
Comatose vision
etched in a mirror
sleep extends its tale
deprived of solace
the dream’s epithet
profits us not
sweltering veil
veranda backlit
and her hair
measured for afterlife
the Sultan’s concubine
kept in a cage
heat’s fiasco
forensic pursuit
huge jewels
perfectly arranged
the dialogue stymied
at the mark of lost faith
4.
I saw a young boy in a row boat but he did not see me.
Chaste catastrophe of a broken mast
men holed up in the mountains
to travel as lightly as snow
to fall
upon fact
Already a tool’s coercion
reels with annunciations
of some one or thing. A yellowy
dross fades into apertures
whose program is scuttled—
diadems for children
made to fall apart.
O spiral of light!
The petals fall, water
dull scum. Once
among these you thought
shadow nerves would come alive
but the body is a fetish: all its moments sealed in a box.
Perhaps the sculptor’s last nobility
gives something back, like the moon to a landscape.
The old knight, there in dark garb, peers at the abstinent blank.
We can make things look natural, but that doesn’t mean they are.
We had told the story of
restoration, pasted the new leaf on the tree.
A belated significance forecasts
its currency, as if among figments
we might enter the glare where history collapsed,
catalyst dispersed as the unremembered,
one ruin much like another, one choice
for a better tomorrow: mass appeal, filling station, chorale.
And the hostage figure—transference and mechanism
caught by intention’s blind noise, site newly animate—claims its form.
MEMENTO MORI (BERLIN)
Kept or held in help me position
and she
to whom the cry is cast
is dead.
Wheels on gravel.
Dog.
The season with a hole in its side.
Intercepted, hand out
as if one could know, or come to know,
in the city, walking among lit staves
among young girls with silver flutes
playing snippets of Mozart, gilt embellishments of the castle,
dust along water’s edge, pool
of fat children, vicissitudes of gray
in the crypt, the new museum’s
horde of old art,
the rip, breach, wound and
the hope
to make it up or rebuild or draw
in the day the things that belonged to the night:
cartoons, scaffolds,
tones massed in the bell tower, ruin
at the intersection,
walls picked like bad skin,
things literal or not, so
you think sign,
mechanical thing,
and the angel on the plinth
its geography faltering like a compass
circumventing distance
in the place of the double moon and the silent skiff
impasse clustered over the kiln,
bony intervention, Darwin’s worms impeded,
and still the light
still the harpy comes blistering out of the crowd
to interrogate the boy,
to ask for papers, name, occupation
let me not forget.
So this is the zone of lost calls.
Or the allegiance to the gymnast
under the hood of the BMW, or
Wagner’s immensity.
There is a squirrel in the birdbath, the evening
broken in branches of maple.
Of things barbaric, ideal.
IMPOSSIBLE BLUE
The blue there are no slippers phoned from the street
the countess a walk across the bridge finding a dress and shoes
the black shoes transparent raining on snow
the birds to be ready for the dance the second wife
came back sailing the blue
the bridge in gold light
the birds in snow
you telephoned
I said I would I
did not the blue after crossing
And that the obscure would approach
in crystal sheaves
accumulating but